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Feb. 21st, 2008

Progress

Things in my mind are changing in various different ways. All of the things I can put words to are positive in the end - it can be uncomfortable at times since a lot of these feelings and processes are essentially new to me...but its okay. Vague, I know...I'll get into it soon enough, but right now I have to go to bed so I can get up early and go to work. =( I want a snow day. Ha, yeah right!

Feb. 17th, 2008

New Mattress!

I am so excited. Tonight will be the last night that I sleep on this super uncomfortable, pain causing mattress. I went out today and bought a new one. I am going to pick it up with Mom tomorrow afternoon and it will be wonderful. It is a full-size, which is also kind of exciting since I'm sleeping in a twin now. Its not that I mind having a twin...but having a full will be more versatile for the future. By that I mean that I will have this bed for a long, long time. Mattresses are expensive - but I must thank the presidents for providing me with a sale (and a bank holiday) and my Mom for helping me barter.

Jan. 13th, 2008

Singing Gaily, or Gay-ly

I might be joining a gay choir. How fun is that? I randomly found the facebook page for The Rainbow Chorale of Delaware. I did not know that Delaware had a GLBT Choir, but it has apparently existed since 1999. The second open call for auditions (but not really audition, more like voice placement) is tomorrow starting at 6pm in Wilmington where they usually rehearse. Wilmington is far for a weekly rehearsal, but I need to find something to do...I really really do. I'm also concerned about being able to make it there in time for rehearsals, which are usually 7pm on Mondays, but we'll see.

It is in the same area where I grew up and did all my music stuff when I was a kid. I wouldn't be surprised if I knew people involved with the group already.

I'm slightly terrified about getting lost on the way there tomorrow (if I decide to go for sure) because it will be in the dark, and on 95 where people drive like maniacs.

We'll see what happens...

Dec. 26th, 2007

Things to do...

There are some days that I really do wish I lived in or just outside of a big city. I think it would be much easier to find things to do and people to meet. I should try to figure out what I'm doing on New Year's Eve. Oh wait, I'm probably just staying home... as usual.

I bought pretty thank you cards and blank cards. I like them a lot. I think I'll go write some now.

Dec. 23rd, 2007

Lessons & Carols 2007

Today was the Lessons & Carols service at my Mom's church. I had 2 solos...singing, not cello. (Definition of L & C: Bible reading, music, Bible reading, music, Bible reading, music, repeat 6 more times). So, its a pretty big deal for Mom, being the Director of Music and coordinating the whole thing. The heat in the church didn't work today. It was approximately 50-55 degrees in the sanctuary. It was insane. Imagine play the organ and/or singing in that kind of temperature for 3 hours. It was really cool. Haha...

We close at 3pm tomorrow! I wish I didn't have to work at all, but I'd rather work until 3 than 6. I have a paying gig for Christmas Eve services which is pretty spectacular. I can always use some extra $ - need to build up the savings account while I sorta kinda have a way to do so. I'm playing cello for services at StP's Ep in town. The two big pieces are the Mozart C major Mass and the Vivaldi Gloria. I've sung and played the Vivaldi before, though I have to admit I enjoy singing it more, but that's ok. Also, I found out that one of the singers is a music therapist, so I'd like to talk to her if I get the chance.

I going to try and wind down and get to bed soon. But FIRST - I got an awesome pair of shoes today at the new DSW store. I wish they had a pair in black too, but I needed brown work shoes badly anyway, so it's all good.

Dec. 16th, 2007

Stocking Stuffers . Work Party . Belting

I have come to this conclusion: Only I would agonize over what to buy for freaking stocking stuffers...I mean really. Does anyone else do this? Probably not.

Last night was the company holiday party. Overall, it was just plain amusing. I think my boss was pretty tipsy, which ended up being hilarious. For the gift, we each received this picnic/wine/cheese cooler-bag type thing with the BCB logo and name embroidered on it. Kinda cool, I guess. So the next (first, haha) time I go on a picnic and want to bring some chilled wine and cheese I'll have a great bag with corkscrew, knife, and mini cutting board... awesome. One of the guys that works in my building bought me a drink. I can't remember his title, but he's right up there with the CEO, etc. He and I share the same birthday, too. That doesn't have anything to do with anything really, but I just felt the need to say it anyway. The funny parts of the evening included when each of the heads of departments went up to the microphone and announced each of our names for the presentation of gifts. My boss, David, in his tipsy state, called each of us up Price is Right style (or a variation in a similar fashion) and then kissed us all on the cheek when we got there. Then there was the dancing. There is nothing like watching your coworkers dance like crazy people - I wish I had the courage to do that. They all wanted me to dance, but it didn't happen. I would be more likely to attempt to dance in a large group than a small one. It was great, though, and I had a pretty good time.

Mom heard me belt for the first time today. I felt embarrassed for some reason. There's a gospel piece she's having her choir do next week and my sister and I had to decide who would do the solo. Julie is going to do it because I have another solo that morning, but I secretly had a good time singing it today. I never sing like that!

Dec. 10th, 2007

Slippery Slope

I'm feeling hateful toward life. It isn't triggered by any one specific thing, it's more of a combination of circumstances. The good thing: I realize it and I can try to pull myself out of it. The bad thing: I feel a bit helpless about some of the things bothering me... I guess it will just take time. I hate time.

A couple of my coworkers (the ones in the offices upstairs, so I don't see them AS much) didn't recognize me today with my new hair. One of them even told me she saw me earlier in the day and thought I might be a newbie. Haha, I laugh.

Dec. 9th, 2007

Random Weekend

I requested to have off from work on Friday (as in, 2 days ago) with the idea that I would visit Drew for the weekend. I never got in touch with people in terms of finding a floor to sleep on, so I just ended up driving up for the Chorale/Orch concert last night. It was good to be there and see people, and I enjoyed the concert. As I was leaving last night, there were several emergency vehicles (mostly police and fire) entering campus with lights flashing - I wonder what that was about. Do any of you Drew people know? I hope everyone is OK! I'm heading up there again tonight for the Madrigals concert. Luckily it is at 7pm and will be relatively short, so I will be home in enough time to get some sleep before work tomorrow.

Work has been stressful lately. I've opened a decent amount of accounts. It isn't the process of actually opening the account that is time consuming, it is all the follow up stuff that takes time. It seems that every time I go to work on anything in my huge folder of stuff to do, the phone either rings with a customer needing a whole bunch of stuff done, or my manager brings more stuff, or someone comes in to open ANOTHER account. Its just crazy. Hopefully I'll be able to get the rest of it done in the next couple of days. Our holiday party is this upcoming Friday - which I'm looking forward to, but am still figuring out what I should wear. From what I can tell, people dress up for this...hmmmm...

In other news, I cut my hair...finally. I hadn't had it cut in 7 months!! It was getting pretty out of control so I randomly decided to just do it. I went on Thursday night, and I am once again a proud member of the short-hair club. It was almost to my shoulders - which most of you probably find hard to believe! =) Now it is short in the back and longer in the front.

Now I'm off to do some Christmas shopping and then back to Drew for the evening.

Nov. 28th, 2007

Just a quick question...

I'm just curious, does anyone actually read this?

I know I haven't posted regularly in, well, pretty much forever. But if I do continue to write (which is my intent), is anyone interested in reading?

Nov. 25th, 2007

College Application

It is still strange to think about the fact that I am in the process of applying to college...again. As a high school senior, applying to college is such a HUGE deal and its the talk of school everyday. Here I am, working full time at a bank while being distracted thinking about writing a college essay, teaching myself music theory, and researching different audition pieces. I wish I could write my essay about the process I went through to determine that music therapy is what I want to do. But I think it will probably benefit me to write the essay about my experiences at Drew and mental health stuff. I know the W's on my Drew transcript probably raise red flags to admissions, but my HS transcript is great and the Drew grades that I have are also good. As far as I know, my GPA is well above what is required for transfers to Temple, but I still worry. Everyone that I've talked to seems to think that I will get into Temple, and the music school, with no problem. I still have a hard time thinking about that because Drew isn't exactly a big music school. I mean, the music program they have is great, especially for a small liberal arts school. Maybe the fact that there is an audition is what's throwing me. I'd imagine the fact that I need this to happen is causing me to doubt myself, too. But...it is what it is and I'm just going to go for it. I know I'm capable of getting in and that I'm good enough for the program, I just need to be more confident about it.

I emailed the person who looks to be the contact person at Temple for Music Therapy, but I never heard back. I should probably try to visit and take a look around the campus and maybe get in touch with some music therapy students. I'm excited!!

The only hard part is that until next fall, I'm still working at the bank. Boooring...

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